Me, Myself and My Dreams

At the end of any sports or games, what will matter is the score of winning. Every players would do their best and it is their ultimate goal is winning  the championship. Any person has a dream, it's just a matter of how making it real and achieving it the way we want it too from the simplest to the most unimaginable.
Dreams can be realities, it can remain a dream forever when people dream  they will do their best to realize it. As matter of fact, I worked hard just to achieve my dreams & even face the most possible obstacle.
I have reached the countries which I thought would not be possibly granted by the Lord. However, at times you have to suffer and apply the instinct of survival.
My dream is getting out from poverty this is why I am determined of going abroad to sacrifice for my family & to fulfill my dreams as well. It may not that easy but they are all so worth rejoicing.

Old Town - Warsaw Poland

Mazowiecki , Poland

Walled city of the Old Town Warsaw - Poland

For the meantime, I'm still tuning in and trying to work out my patience again waiting for that big chance which the Lord has prepared for me just as He keeps His silence. I've got a lot opportunities in hand which I thought was for me, knowing that it pushes me to test the water with my foot instead of going down both of my feet.
Yet, the fear of anticipating of something that you don't know & disagreeable of what I want is a battle that I need to prepare about. My status right now is afloat, no definite directions though I have plans being printed yet, all of which are in vain.
Truly, I have this disgruntled feeling of God because all of the questions that I have been asking pertaining all of these failures that I've got so far has no answered.
If I could just doing it on my own freely, I would have been gone abroad by now. The reality is no longer vague to me that I should have worked doubly for my family and for my future next travel.

Bangkok  Thailand with the novice young monks

One day trip in Macau

Italian inspired fountain in Macau

Temple in Ban Rai - Thailand

Stanley Boulevard - Hongkong

Twin Tower of Petronas - Kuala Lumpur

Batu Cave - Kuala Lumpur

Pictures here are just all memories I had abroad about me, myself and my dreams. The very first step of achieving one's goal is to start dreaming and making it real.

ONE SOLITARY LIFE

Was blog absent for a while..decided myself to be in the hiatus for a couple of days since I was occupied with tutorial works so as my monetary budget was out..then. Now, I am back and love to share things more of me.
When you see the face of a person smiling, just as the sunshines in the sky shows the world that one feels happy and the moods is soaring high.
Most of the times, I feel so very sad and really don't know why, maybe its because I am struggling & grappling still attaining my dreams. Friends would just jokingly said, its a matter of tuning yourself through different frequencies of life; go with the flow of the current where it leads you.
Life is like a river continuous procession moving forward in a steady stream. Sometimes the flowing is rough when it isn't too deep. One of the reasons why I am sad its because halfway of my friends and acquaintances were already gone abroad and some of which were expecting me to be at the other side of the world already, grazing the greenest pasture.
I have thought occasionally that I was born unlucky, deprived by fate. Albeit failed a hundred times or so I am still firmly determined to try with the hope fortune would give its damn way. As luck would have it, my spirited heart has resolved the simpler form of acceptance, so long as the world continue to revolve around the axis there is still hope.
As the song goes " beyond the dark cloudy nights, the sun is shining through".I would have retired my fate if God would leave me just as it is..but I believed He won't do that to a special creature like me.

A GRAIN OF DREAMS

Each day that you live is like turning the page of a book that still has no end. One whole day is a continuation of the story that makes up your life.
I've been away for a quite sometimes and was unable to update my blog since I'm getting addictive of Facebook farmtown games so as the Twitter.It's already the month of September which the signs of Christmas started to fill our days with the coolness of the weather.Ber(as in September, October, November) has been the starting point of Christmas in the Philippines though it isn't visibly clear but you can feel it the blowing of the air that gently touches your face coldly.
Sadness won't leave me peacefully since counting the year 2009 is becoming a months now yet nothing happens in my life worth to be counted of.
I have a couples of applications that was sent and under evaluation by now which is a good opportunity (from) abroad.My fingers is crossed tightly that somehow the Celestial Being would be kind enough to me this year...I really need to get out of the island before the year ends.
My journey as I grow older is the process of knowing who I am, then recognizing my strengths, and limitations, and finally realization would proved me that no matter how I dream big still its a grain of dreams after all.
Sometimes my knees shake painfully, too tired of fighting the same reasons and goal yet nothing happens...Honestly, familiar faces whom I know which some of them are younger than me successfully making their way abroad that brings so much pain and tears in my life, why they have the good chance to work abroad yet I can't?
Signs isn't enough to be appreciated that opportunity is on its way to my door ready to be grasped...I had enough signs..so enough for it...I want answers that would satisfied my long questions.

RAINBOW CONNECTION

RAINBOW CONNECTION
Kermit the Frog

Why are there so many
Songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side
Rainbow's are visions
They're only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide
So we've been told and some chose to
Believe it
But I know they're wrong wait and see

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me

Who said that every wish
Would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star
Somebody thought of that
And someone believed it
And look what it's done so far
What's so amazing
That keeps us star gazing
What so we think we might see

Someday we'll find it
That Rainbow Connection
The lovers the dreamers and me

Have you been half asleep
And have you heard voices
I've heard them calling my name
Are these the sweet sounds that called
The young sailors
I think they're one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
There's something that I'm supposed to be

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me

This is my fave song.It was popular way back in the early 80's sang by Kermit the frog theme song from the movie "The Muppet Show". No matter how vague it was still I can remember how Kermit sang this wonderful song.Its the entrance of the movie,while Kermit playing the guitar hovering over in the river,beneath in a peaceful moonlight evening.
If you go along with the flow of the lyrics and savor its juices,you'll see yourself in the fantasy land of reality.
The song is truly sad and lonely,yet, soothing.Every time I sing or hear this song,it brings me back the time where I was young,naive and dreaming of going to some place that I wish to see.
As an adult person, I still believing that dreams do come true no matter what.Loneliness,envelopes me when times of reckoning the days,how I would make my dreams come true.
But just as the song goes,someday I'll find it the rainbow connection,the lovers the dreamers and me.

NEVER STOP BELIEVING

Never Stop Believing
There's always the promise of a new day.
There's always something to come home to.
There's always a star much brighter than the darkest night.
There's always a moment when the impossible becomes probable.
All because you believe. Together we can move mountains.
(source: AYALA Corp.)

As usual, life has been so monotonous these times....nothing much newsworthy and no challenges. I just stay home watch movies with friends(thanks to Jacks and Michael for allowing to watch movies at their home)
I got this short poem from a news paper and it was a message from AYALA group...I like how the message goes as it is trying to explain of reaching your dreams without stopping of believing that you can possibly go beyond what you desire for.
Hopelessly as I am, that poem encourages me to stay tune no matter how vague and unclear life is....from now on I won't stop believing.
These were the movies I had watched previously.......you like them while you are passing the boring time.

MY GROWN UP CHRISTMAS LIST

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

I just knew this song last year when a friend of mine shared this song by sending it thru bluetooth.The message behind the song was illuminating that soothes coldly to my heart specially this Yuletide season.
Christmas is the most Wonderful Time of the Year,according to Paul Anka's song, which is true.To be honest,I can't feel much the aura of Christmas since I'm broke and just started my class this Tuesday.We tried to convince the Koreans, to come back here to study English but they were affected of the crisis as well, that stop them to come.
The world is in deep crisis,how could you feel the essence of Christmas? Can you expect people to smile though life is tight right now? I believe people will still wear a smile amidst of the crisis,economically.Shopping malls are still filled with rat mallers and shoppers,busily buying gifts and food for Christmas.
As a grown up person,I have tried to list some of my Christmas wish list.The only thing that I wanted to have in life is a simple living with so much contentment.Herewith, are my Christmas life long wishlist this year;
1.Good stable paying job
2.Traveling/working abroad
3.gifts for my parents and hopefully see them this year.
4.reunion with my brothers and family
5.reunion with my classmates back in high school
6.to be financially stable
7.spiritually stable
8.health
9.to own a Mac laptop
10.to buy a C902 SonyEriccson mobile
11.a lifetime partner

Adults have Christmas wish as well,not just the kids.I can't wish for a world peace since it's prophesied by the Holy Scripture that in the end times world will be in chaos.Too bad,that we are in the midst of this turmoil which the competition is tough,no matter how good you are academically,yet,your diploma won't surely guarantee you of that good future monetarily.
I never have any wish for this year but that list written above..they might not be the complete lists but its just in my mind that is being processed...and considerably a lifelong wish list every Christmas.

NEVER HAD A DREAM COME TRUE

The man for whom time stretches out painfully is one waiting in vain, disappointed at not finding tomorrow already continuing yesterday.
Theodor Adorno

Life comes in unexpected ways,the unwavering and phenomenal time hibernates rapidly.The changes of the world sometimes awestruck us dumbfounding as if the world is racing up with the time.
From the far stretched land of this universe,it always instill in my mind that dreams do come true.
Honestly,the future is an enigmatic issue for me.Worrying much about my dreams and ambition,usually brings me in the stillness of temporary inaction,lingering the time.
I always anticipate greater adversaries as I dream that would definitely defile my spirited beings to dream.Some dreams may fall unexpectedly into depression for being jobless or ended up into a mediocre job with meager salary.
However, the depression might reach its end,but the controversy where I was sandwiched in,would still prevail.
I am certain that every step I march on that red-carpeted path would definitely mean that no matter how I struggle much and extend my effort still an impossibility of the possibility.
The future looks bleak that brought loneliness in my heart...would I still continue my star gazing and dreaming? How long would I dream? Sometimes,streamline of tears goes down to my check as I was looking up the clear blue sky.
With a frustrating government and economic crisis that really feels nostalgic about life,continually telling myself I never had a dream come true...

DESIRED THINGS

The life-giving element of this planet relaxes both the physical,spiritual,body, and the soul as you wake up every morning seeing the rhythmic lights of the sun trickling and invigorate you with its playful ripples as it engulfs your surroundings with its calm serenity.
Every creatures should delight in the masterful architecture of God but as man develops and started to learn,he took advantage what the world has to offer.Unsatisfied of what the eyes can see,man destroys the beauty of this world..and the rest of the creations were corrupted.
I always desired of a life that you can lay back,relax,and feel the luxury of time,in a place where there are no boundaries,no limits.
Every time I laze the day away,the famous prose poem " Desiderata" inspired me which every details of its thought takes me to realm of quiet relaxation that creates an earthy touch to every wall,door,room, and window of this world as we called home.
I salute the author for creating this wonderful piece which I believe every man desired to be.Let me post this poem as it relish you in an intimate moments that makes you forget about the troubling world outside.



Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, 1927

Enjoy the poem,bask in tender pleasure as it tranquils embrace you and take you to a dream of infinite serenity.

IN LIFE,WE ALL WAIT

Sorry about the downtime with the blog thing.It's been 4 days since I havent updated my blog. I miss reading my links blog and posting some comments....
I can't just remind myself of updating my blog every now and then.
The pic below is a sculpture of a three women feeling bored of awaiting something....the sculpture speaks that in Life we experienced the intense of waiting...mostlikely, we felt bored and sleep.
This is what my blog has telling me that I should keep my blog updated to avoid boredom of awaiting.


I myself is waiting in anticipation of posting a new one,bringing some new stuff and experiences.It is honestly touching when you write on your blog and somebody stumbled unintentionally,blessed by the entry.