ONE SOLITARY LIFE

Was blog absent for a while..decided myself to be in the hiatus for a couple of days since I was occupied with tutorial works so as my monetary budget was out..then. Now, I am back and love to share things more of me.
When you see the face of a person smiling, just as the sunshines in the sky shows the world that one feels happy and the moods is soaring high.
Most of the times, I feel so very sad and really don't know why, maybe its because I am struggling & grappling still attaining my dreams. Friends would just jokingly said, its a matter of tuning yourself through different frequencies of life; go with the flow of the current where it leads you.
Life is like a river continuous procession moving forward in a steady stream. Sometimes the flowing is rough when it isn't too deep. One of the reasons why I am sad its because halfway of my friends and acquaintances were already gone abroad and some of which were expecting me to be at the other side of the world already, grazing the greenest pasture.
I have thought occasionally that I was born unlucky, deprived by fate. Albeit failed a hundred times or so I am still firmly determined to try with the hope fortune would give its damn way. As luck would have it, my spirited heart has resolved the simpler form of acceptance, so long as the world continue to revolve around the axis there is still hope.
As the song goes " beyond the dark cloudy nights, the sun is shining through".I would have retired my fate if God would leave me just as it is..but I believed He won't do that to a special creature like me.

(SURVIVOR) MAN AGAINST THE WORLD

SURVIVOR-MAN AGAINST THE WORLD

Have you ever walked alone at night
Like a man against the world
No one takes your side
A boat against the tide
When your faith is shaken you start to break
And you heart cant find the words
Tossed upon the sand
I give you a man against the world
All the people cheer til the end is near
And the hero takes a fall
Then theyll drag you through the mud
Youre only flesh and blood
I have walked the path from dark to light
And theyve yet to come to terms
Alone I take my stand
Im only a man against the world

And love, like a distant reminder
It tugs at my shoulder
It calls me home
I shout, can a single voice carry
Will I find sanctuary within your arms
Someday when the answers clearer
Someday when I even the score
Youll reach and youll find me near you
Right beside you
Forevermore

But for now Ill walk the night alone
Like a man against the world
A brand new day will shine
Through the avalanche of time
Now the roads grown long, but the spirits strong
And the fire within still burns
Alone I take my stand
I give you a man against the world

I just only know this song a couple of months ago.While I was on my summer vacation in Olongapo city..A piled of cd's was just messing around, one of it was a collection of 80's slow rocks.Since I'm an 80's guy I played it and this song caught my senses...I paused for awhile trying to savor and understand the message.
Upon hearing the song,I felt a sudden change of emotion that chilled me to goosebumps..Realizing that I am the man being mentioned against the world.
Sometimes,I felt that nobody takes at my side when I am down and out, frustration of fulfilling ones dream keep on taunting me.
Discouragement and envy keeps on dancing around me as if hopes has no longer power to encourage my weary soul.
Nevertheless, the song says But for now Ill walk the night alone
Like a man against the world
A brand new day will shine
Through the avalanche of time
Now the roads grown long, but the spirits strong
And the fire within still burns
Alone I take my stand
I give you a man against the world.

CONTRASTED LIVES

CONSTRASTED LIVES
Jesus and Alexander died at 33.
One lived and died for seld; one died for you and me.
The Greek died on a throne; the Jew died on a cross.
One's life a triumph seemed; the other but a loss.
One's led vast armies forth; the other walked alone.
One shed a whole world's blood; the other gave His own.
One won the world in life and lost it all in death;
the other lost His life to win the whole world's faith.
Jesus and Alexander died at 33.
The Greek made all men slaves; the Jew made all men free.
One built a throne on blood; the other built on love.
The one was born of earth; the other from above.
The one won all this earth, to lose all earth and heaven.
The other gave up all, that all to Him be given.
The Greek forever died; the Jew forever lives.
He loses all who gets; he wins all things who gives.
-Charles Ross Wedge-

I'm back from such a couple of days in silence...miss blogging and updating. Usually when I blog, I don't just post them here directly without checking and writing them in a piece of paper and check the necessary errors like spelling, grammar and of course digging out my serious ideas with the help of my dictionary using a little hard of vocabularies, before scribbling them here in my personal blog.

These past weeks up to now, have been so painful and excruciating hot weeks. Jobless, penniless, boring life, frustrations and disappoinments keeps on confronting me.
Resulting to this adversaries, I really don't know what to do and where to go. I left for Olongapo the second week of March just to accompany my cousin picking up her estrange bf from Japan.
My stayed there was good since I got the chance to see my classmates back in High School. We discussed about the possible initial reunion of our class. I never been home for 3 years so I seized the opportunities I had to roam around the city.
Familiar landmarks are still there stood in remembrance of the good old Olongapo heydays. When I got back from Olongapo, bundle of problems scattered away. Boy, life is getting harder everyday so as my world is getting smaller in Cavite.
Avoiding the hot boring summer, I stayed at my co-teachers place watching movies as I needed too...wow, you heard that, as much as I want too.
As a movie geek, I sorted them and balancing what movie should I consider to be favorite aside from movies in the 80's.
Among the films I had watched this summer was, "August Rush" captures the moment of my life. Watching it truly moves my heart and bring so much wet of tears in my eyes but I decided to control them so as my co-teachers won't laugh at me.
Gee, love the movie so much, good thing that my co-teachers has a taste on selecting movies that has quality....listen, quality.
So much more, I found this message from a certain devotional while I was browsing the book to pass the time....this Contrasted Lives captured my emotion pondering deeply how God gave His son for us sakes....are we making our lives accorind to His will? its a question that needs an answer right?

Well, here are the movies that erases the boredom I had this week.

IN LIFE; SAFE OR SORRY?

Life could be very tricky. One day you're up, the next day you're down. Having a stable and good paying job is life's safety net against uncertainties.
World crisis is still a financial catastrophic, that leaves the humanity in tears and a pocket threat.
Everyone wants to be successful in life, and success in life is all about finding the perfect fit-with your partner, educations, chose endeavors and more importantly, your career.
We couldn't recognize the small thrive in an environment much different from the one in which we desire to be.
Honest to goodness, we continue to strive not just to earn something in this world but for the survival of the crisis that continue to wash out the world's stability.
At the end of the day, what is important is not simply what you and I have done, but the reason why we do things.
Planning every single of our dreams and desires is like plotting a quarters worth of meals.
After all these struggles in life, anchoring to God's promises is the best propeller that we can use, (as) today's is the eliminations of the unfit and the survival of the fittest.

IN TIMES LIKE THESE

The world is hopeless now, as the world's getting older the more our conditions become critically worst. Our money have lost a great deal of their purchasing power.
The world is in the midst of an absolutely enormous financial crisis. Recently, four great banks in America announced its bankruptcy, with many major banks and other respected financial institutions in danger collapsing. Philippine stock exchange, seriously dying following the less job opportunity in the country with meager salaries but massive government corruptions.
Chaos in Thailand, pathetical bombing in India and in various parts of Middle East. Non stop wars from selected countries keep wreaking havoc the fear conditions of the young and innocent minds.
Natural related disasters continually damaging some parts of the world, that left emptiness to every loss of individuals. A famous American Economic analyst predicted America would suffer a great economic melt down by the year 2009 and onwards. it is the most powerful country inthe world but economically paralyzed that affects the world market.
These facts dishearten me much so as my future clearly vanish. In times like these, what will you do? what would be the first things that pops out into your mind? In times like these, where are you going?
If I'm going to ask or if I were to ask myself, I practically don't know...I,myself is a hopeless homosapiens and is trying to survive these striking analogical crisis.Truly, its an alarming to realize that I am really unable and lacking strength since I'm still jobless and has no permanent job. As I can see , my education has no used to no avails.