AGE IS JUST A NUMBER

Honestly, I am afraid of getting older without any accomplishments in life....getting older of being single, & alone. Afraid of getting older when I failed to do something that the desires of my heart wants me to achieve...
This picture really awakens me when I checked the site of Chuckie Dreyfus....its nice isn't it?

LEAVES THE FUTURE TO FATE

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When future seems untrue & blurred, as if hope gone slowly to forlorn-we glided to discourage and ask," What Future do I Have? ".
Growing up in a poor family, I always dreamt of having a fine,classic life.But up to now I'm still gruppling tightly whether chance would come or not. Aside from obtaining a good christian Education; shaping & building my own dreams is really hard to establish when I only start now putting a scaffold in the midst of my adult years.
I remember an old song that goes," When I was just a little kid, I asked my mother what shall I be? Will I be richer, will I be poor?; this is what she said to me, " Que sera, sera whatever will be, will be. That song describes the simplicity of a kid's dream and confusingly what future holds for him out of his innocence, as the mother can't help out to pull a better future for her kid but leaving the future to fate. When we hope, we tried our best to realize it but when the heaven seems so silent and prayers left unanswered, we become helpless but give fate to control.
As a dreamer and dreaming of big things to happen in my life,the journey must go on though it remains still a question till now. However,I strongly believe with faith in my heart that God will help me to fulfill my dreams before the due of time.
Frailty as I am, discouragement sometimes knocks me off down to the ground helplessly.I know from start that life is like a boxing, its up to us to escape from the hit of every jab of the opponents and prepare ourselves to face the possible strong blows of life.
Do I leave my future to fate? I just don't know....I'm still asking myself about it..but to be safe, leave it up all to the Lord.
Let me share a nice passage that I received from a friend through text:
"Life is full of uncertainties, we'll never when our time on earth is up till its over. So take many pictures, laugh much, have a long walk with someone, take time to look up at the stars, eat like there's no tomorrow, sing loudly, feel the cold wind, smile a lot and love like you've never been hurt before because every 60 seconds you spend, is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."
What a real awakening..isn't it? My views in life has been changing every battles of life I face on daily..it's so tiring but I need to continue the battle that I have started.

NEVER HAD A DREAM COME TRUE

The man for whom time stretches out painfully is one waiting in vain, disappointed at not finding tomorrow already continuing yesterday.
Theodor Adorno

Life comes in unexpected ways,the unwavering and phenomenal time hibernates rapidly.The changes of the world sometimes awestruck us dumbfounding as if the world is racing up with the time.
From the far stretched land of this universe,it always instill in my mind that dreams do come true.
Honestly,the future is an enigmatic issue for me.Worrying much about my dreams and ambition,usually brings me in the stillness of temporary inaction,lingering the time.
I always anticipate greater adversaries as I dream that would definitely defile my spirited beings to dream.Some dreams may fall unexpectedly into depression for being jobless or ended up into a mediocre job with meager salary.
However, the depression might reach its end,but the controversy where I was sandwiched in,would still prevail.
I am certain that every step I march on that red-carpeted path would definitely mean that no matter how I struggle much and extend my effort still an impossibility of the possibility.
The future looks bleak that brought loneliness in my heart...would I still continue my star gazing and dreaming? How long would I dream? Sometimes,streamline of tears goes down to my check as I was looking up the clear blue sky.
With a frustrating government and economic crisis that really feels nostalgic about life,continually telling myself I never had a dream come true...

DESIRED THINGS

The life-giving element of this planet relaxes both the physical,spiritual,body, and the soul as you wake up every morning seeing the rhythmic lights of the sun trickling and invigorate you with its playful ripples as it engulfs your surroundings with its calm serenity.
Every creatures should delight in the masterful architecture of God but as man develops and started to learn,he took advantage what the world has to offer.Unsatisfied of what the eyes can see,man destroys the beauty of this world..and the rest of the creations were corrupted.
I always desired of a life that you can lay back,relax,and feel the luxury of time,in a place where there are no boundaries,no limits.
Every time I laze the day away,the famous prose poem " Desiderata" inspired me which every details of its thought takes me to realm of quiet relaxation that creates an earthy touch to every wall,door,room, and window of this world as we called home.
I salute the author for creating this wonderful piece which I believe every man desired to be.Let me post this poem as it relish you in an intimate moments that makes you forget about the troubling world outside.



Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, 1927

Enjoy the poem,bask in tender pleasure as it tranquils embrace you and take you to a dream of infinite serenity.

OPPORTUNITIES

I found this picture in the internet and below is the explanations of the painter regarding of his piece.

"In our journey through life, we often encounter opportunities and disappointments. In this painting there is a person, who appears defeated after a door closes in front of him. The doors symbolize the different opportunities in life and are arranged in a seemingly never-ending hallway, which represents our life’s journey. The disappointment of his recent loss is such, that it has drained all his energy and is preventing him from noticing the other opportunities available. This painting is intended to help the viewer realize that we are bound to find closed doors in our life, but our perseverance will lead us to find other opportunities."

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Usually,we always pray for good opportunities to come in place specially if we dream something what our hearts wants not what the Lord has plans for us.Sometimes,opportunity is already there right in front of us but we refused to accept it because we don't want to and it's not practically the way we desire for it...however,we only realized when we get disappointed when it's no longer open for us.

AGONIZING THE PAIN OF FRUSTRATIONS

Once again,I failed to update my blog and was in the hiatus for a while.The previous days was filled with rushing errands that forced me to catch the time on its specific target.Amid the painful bite of the summer,I never get tired of rushing here and there grabbing every opportunities that offers a good financial stability.
I have no other tenacious desire but to work abroad that provides me a better future....monetarily.
Yet,luck isn't kind to me this time as if opportunity aloof and keeping in distance.As much as possible,I never passed any moment but search all the possible teaching jobs abroad and some were responding back and some aren't and some just kept ignoring me.
I was very down and frustrated just this previous weeks...thinking about the rejections I got from abroad.....well,I always praying that somehow I would be accepted and share the talents and education that I've learned from school.

THE EXODUS OF FILIPINO TEACHERS

Philippine provides the best teachers in the world, the reasons Filipino teachers are in demand abroad.This has been the problems-the country is facing ever since.
The experts called the mass departure of Filipino Teachers "Brain Drain" which only not referred to medical term of brain problems.
My last year entry was also discussing about "The Brain Drain" which was debatedly tells the mass exodus of Filipino skilled professional workers.
The grass is greener at the other side that continually lure our Teachers.With a very high compensations, who wouldn't be tempted to leave as that our Government cannot afford to elevate the good offers abroad.Can we stop our teachers from leaving? If only our Government provides the exact needs of our educators,surely our skilled teachers won't tempt to depart.
Teaching is a noble profession,they are the ones who inspired the students to dream and achieved their goals in life.The teachers, are among of those mediocre job(as they said) who just receiving-not ample of salary but meager,may it be at Private school the least at Public school.
I never dreamed of becoming a teacher because there's no money in teaching,nor predicting myself as an educator and molding students.Contrariwise, I graduated as a Secondary Education major but having no choice but to teach.However, travelling abroad has been a top choice and teaching abroad would be the second option if given the chance.
When I read Philippine Daily Star (which I forgot the exact date)just to be updated of the current events globally, my instinct led me to the Editorial column to check the latest and hottest issue in the Government,usually among the unsolved crisis which is the influx of skilled Filipino teachers.
The column startled me to cause my curiosity of reading the article seriously.My heart was awfully distressed as my eyes sadly gazing at the picture inscribed of a crying teacher flying away from her students begging her to stop on leaving.If this dilemma would continue to happen uncontrollably what will happen to our young future leaders? Mostlikely, the mediocre teachers are the one who'll be left behind.
I know a certain two Math teachers who were being hired by the US government and they are currently enjoying their lives in Southern Carolina provided by car and house of the government.The salary they're earning is just an equivalent of a CEO wage..
Herewith, was an article:
" A WIDENING DIVIDE FROM THE PHILIPPINE STAR"
Here we are facing a crisis in education, and nearly 200 teachers are leaving for high-paying jobs in the United States.A report said 198 Filipinos will soon be teaching in a county in Maryland,with starting salaries of up to $43,841 a year.There's no way the Philippine Government can match that salary, and teachers cannot be prevented from leaving for better livelihood opportunities.This doesn't make the exodus of teachers any less painful for the country.
Globalization has created a huge marketplace for certain skills, and people are moving around the world to take advantage of the job opportunities.The movement has created an imbalance in labor supply that favors affluent economies.Rich countries can hire all the foreign workers they need; developing countries are hard-pressed to replace the professionals and skilled workers who leave.
Conservative estimates place the number of Filipinos working overseas at eight million.That's a tenth of the entire population, and the number continues to grow.The annual multibillion-peso remittances are good for economic growth figures, helping keep the peso strong and reducing the country's debt burden.But the burden on many other aspects of national life is getting worse.
Experts have warned that low teaching salaries have resulted in a drastic drop in the number of Filipinos seeking careers in education.Those who do pursue careers as teachers are often in a hurry to find jobs overseas.Inevitably, the best teachers are the ones who get hired, leaving the less qualified to handle teaching jobs in the Philippines.
Most of the country's best teachers are in private schools that can afford to pay high salaries.This leave millions of students in public schools with teachers who lack the skills that are urgently needed to bridge a widening education divide between the rich and poor.
A program can be undertaken to develop a competent pool of teachers who can impart skills to colleagues across the country.This is not an impossible task and should not entail an enormous amount of investment.There are ways of enticing teachers to stay in their own land, or to at least set aside several years of their lives to serve their own people.It is good to know that Filipinos are finding high-paying jobs and better lives overseas.
It will be even better if Filipinos can be encouraged to remain in their own country and help make life better for their compatriots.

I CAN GO THE DISTANCE

Living in this lonely planet is prone to the confrontation of depressible.Yes, depression that reduces the significant of your being to nothingness mentally and physically.
I had just recuperated from a great low spirit not so long since, but unexpected attack of another depressing notable occurence,nearly weakens my resolution.I have been the recipient of depressant frequently,this time.Just surprised deeply why it has to be like this,yet,this is not the kind of life I am anticipating to have.
One of my so-called investment from my salary which I had earned from my teaching at the Language Institute was my MP4.This little gadget plays important role in my life specially in times of exhaustion.Every songs that I played in my MP4 enthralled my tiresome senses into amusing means of curing wholly.
Thanks to the song I downloaded "I Can Go The Distance" originally sang by Michael Bolton,recently revised by Josh Groban.The song deeply spoke to my heart as I was in my solitude trying to foretell the time to come.
I was profoundly relieved by the message as I repeatedly played the song.Soothing touch of the sonata calmly bathed me in tender massage of inspirations.
If you'll go on and savor the message of the song it'll arouse your bravado,no matter how depressed you are, if you will find your way-you can do the distance.
Try to listen and internalize the song being played as the melody tickles your ear.



"I CAN GO THE DISTANCE"


I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a hero's welcome
Would be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be

I'll be there someday
I can go the distance
I will find my way
If I can be strong
I know ev'ry mile
Will be worth my while
When I go the distance
I'll be right where I belong

Down an unknown road
To embrace my fate
Though the road may wander
It will lead me to you
And a thousand years
Would be worth the wait
It may take a lifetime
But somehow I'll see it through

And I won't look back
I can go the distance
And I'll stay on track
No I won't accept defeat
It's an uphill slope
But I won't lose hope
Till I go the distance
And my journey is complete

But to look beyond the glory is the hardest part
For a hero's strength is measured by his heart

Like a shooting star
I can go the distance
I will search the world
I will face its harms
I don't care how far
I can go the distance
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

I will search the world
I will face its harms
TillI find my hero's welcome
Waiting in your arms...

LIFE AFTER GRADUATION

My dictionary defines Education " The process of educating".How important education is, that our parents strongly encouraging us to study harder and evenly to come the end in college?
We used to hear repeatedly from this cliche's " Education is the only wealth and possessions that our parents can possibly give". That I boldly agreed.
At my age now, I certainly knew how education having much significance or value in this industrialized world, specially on searching a job.
Being impecunious doesn't an obstruction enable for us to obtain education.To brazen it out, my parents had never gone to secondary level,especially my father whom just finished on 3rd grade while my mother an elementary grad...but I'm proud of them.Their time was far deeper from the generations of today, so consideration is legally regarded as conventional and favorable.
Modesty aside, I got two complete series of studies which I considerably a great blessings from above.The first one was taken by chance because of the scholarship I got from DAR-BFAR.I won't forget the 3 joyful long years of my study from my first course which gave me the full length of familiarization of my father's parentage, Cebu.
On the contrary, that course had never been an efficacious to get me a better job in line for it.Yet, I ended up as a factory worker;production staff and canteen dish washer which had thought me profoundly why do suffer myself of working as dishwasher thus I'm a college graduate?
Looking back the 90's, my life as a Fishery graduate eventually circulated for five years working as Factory Worker,going out - going in and happily receiving the salary you deserved.Contentment didn't unkindly render fulfillment of my needs and wants to remain factory worker forever,but, foreglimpse and dream big.I frustratedly feel stagnated and try to search the better store.
Hence, I thanks God and my family for pushing my back to finish my Diploma in Fishery Technology.The learnings I got from Fishery school is a big of help in contributing our aquatic resources preservation.
Going back to school was way far from my plan nor inclining of making a single step.Yet, God reveals His marvelous scheme and sent me to college once more.Honest to goodness, teaching marked unwillingness,thus,I just graduated reluctantly because it's set against my fond hope.Nevertheless,God uses people to sustain my studies monetarily.
As newly grad, competition is very tough right now,even the undergrads serves as threat of rivalry to the graduates.Both were starving vultures of today...and the country has no enough room to accomodate us.
Where else we will go,hitting abroad is lucrative right now...which the grass is greener at the other side...Job seeking is not that easy,you got to spend a lot of money buying newspaper glimpsing the classified ads with the hope there is something vacant job that qualifies us.Hitting the ground with that excruciating heat doesn't hinder us to be jobseeker.
Worrying where to go and what to do after graduation was the normal feelings of the newly grad.Would you imagine living in this country that never gives any guarantee for our future....what would happen to us newly grad and here comes millions of out of school youth trying to survive the dying country.
The world has a lot to offer,its vast space provides enough room but corruptible citizens were among the predators....staying on our way especially those who are sitting in the highest position.
yet, if we'll do our best ignoring those who try to put us down, the crab mentality thing...we will be succeeded.
To us graduates..congratulations....life may not be always a bed of roses but it can be possibly true if we'll use the education that we have learned from school, from our admiring Professors.
Life after graduation is, honestly hard comparing when you are holding your pens and papers.But is there such a stable job? I really don't know, specially in this country....thus our togas,and caps symbolizes that we made it from the stressful school works