FRAGRANCE OF THE SEASON

Christmas is almost over..and New Year is fast approaching. Christmas is the longest celebration in the country and the celebrations even extended to New Year's eve.
Have you sent your warm wishes to the people dear to you? to your friends? Our spirits rise as we breathe in the winter air flinging off our burdens as we step into the part covered with crispy brown leaves. When you look up into the blue sky you'll find a great big smile through the clouds.
As we are welcoming the 2009,smiles are what fill us with delight and bring us back to our good old days....in 2008.
On a crystal clear blue morning,there is a peace that only you can know...and everyone wish for that world peace in that coming 2009. Everyone is continually asking,what would be in store for us this 2009, since we are covering with tensions of that world crisis?
Looking back the 2008, it wasn't that blissful and prosperous year for me, but a sort of unfortunate and stressful life given to me.
Fear as we called it but 2009 is still an anticipating event that we need to know curiously. We need to shield ourselves whatever that adversaries would attack us somehow.
I wish everyone a blessed 2009 New Year.....

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL

It's Christmas time and the whole planet is celebrating regardless of religions,culture,and spiritual beliefs.Amidst of the world crisis,it never stops the world to celebrate because of its remembrance of God's birth,though its not the exact date of his birth Biblically.
People were busily shopping in advance to avoid the rush. Some may have contented of what is being around,and what is being given by the Almighty.Some were displaying different colors of light and Christmas trees earlier just to fill the air with warm of celebrations.
Some have just preferred their houses flooded with Christmas ornaments,some were reusing and recycling the old stuff just to be frugal of sort.
Others were spending the Yuletide season at home with their families, others preferred to be at their work..just like me.
Nonetheless,no matter how we celebrate it individually and geographically,what matters most is we are celebrating it because of God's remembrance of his birth not just because of the season.
I just wish that I can spend the season with my parents....its been 14 long years and is still counting that I haven't spent it with them. The atmosphere is quiet cool which the air is breathlessly blowing here and there reminding that Christmas is just around the corner now.
Wishing the world a Merry Christmas so as to my fellow Bloggers, frequent visitors and readers.....God Bless us as we are remembering Him this seasons of hope.

MY GROWN UP CHRISTMAS LIST

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

I just knew this song last year when a friend of mine shared this song by sending it thru bluetooth.The message behind the song was illuminating that soothes coldly to my heart specially this Yuletide season.
Christmas is the most Wonderful Time of the Year,according to Paul Anka's song, which is true.To be honest,I can't feel much the aura of Christmas since I'm broke and just started my class this Tuesday.We tried to convince the Koreans, to come back here to study English but they were affected of the crisis as well, that stop them to come.
The world is in deep crisis,how could you feel the essence of Christmas? Can you expect people to smile though life is tight right now? I believe people will still wear a smile amidst of the crisis,economically.Shopping malls are still filled with rat mallers and shoppers,busily buying gifts and food for Christmas.
As a grown up person,I have tried to list some of my Christmas wish list.The only thing that I wanted to have in life is a simple living with so much contentment.Herewith, are my Christmas life long wishlist this year;
1.Good stable paying job
2.Traveling/working abroad
3.gifts for my parents and hopefully see them this year.
4.reunion with my brothers and family
5.reunion with my classmates back in high school
6.to be financially stable
7.spiritually stable
8.health
9.to own a Mac laptop
10.to buy a C902 SonyEriccson mobile
11.a lifetime partner

Adults have Christmas wish as well,not just the kids.I can't wish for a world peace since it's prophesied by the Holy Scripture that in the end times world will be in chaos.Too bad,that we are in the midst of this turmoil which the competition is tough,no matter how good you are academically,yet,your diploma won't surely guarantee you of that good future monetarily.
I never have any wish for this year but that list written above..they might not be the complete lists but its just in my mind that is being processed...and considerably a lifelong wish list every Christmas.

A NOSTALGIC SONG

I'M GOING BACK TO THE PHILIPPINES
Artist: Menudo

im going back to the philippines
INTRO: FM7, F, FM7-Bb7/ pause
FM7, F, FM7-Bb7/ pause
(repeat except last chord)
BbM7 pause

F Gm7 F/A
Quietly she sat beside me
Bb C
"Hello love", was all she said,
F Gm7 F/A
"Are you also feelin' lonely?"
Bb C
With her eyes she answered, "Yes."

REFRAIN:
A7/C# Dm
In Makati when we met
Dm/C Dm/B
The moment I will never forget.
Bb Am7 Dm7
Her perfume filled the warm night air
Bb C Am7 Dm7
A yellow rose she wore in her hair,
Bb C Am7 Dm7
That's when I knew how much I cared
Bb C F-Gm7-F/A-Bb-C pause
And I took her with a kiss.

F Gm7 F/A
We walked along through the city
Bb C
And I held her by the hand,
F Gm7 F/A
"When I am gone, will you miss me?
Bb C
Think of how our love began."

REFRAIN:
A7/C# Dm
Underneath Manila sky
Dm/C Dm/B
We knew we had to say goodbye.
Bb Am7 Dm7
And for the last time we shared our dreams
Bb C Am7 Dm7
Our deepest secret and what our love means,
Bb C Am7 Dm7
I made my promise, she made a wish
Bb C F-Bb/F-F-
An I left her with a kiss

CHORUS: F, Eb
Bb F
I'm goin' back to the Philippines
C F- F,Eb
Where my love is waiting
Bb F
I'm goin' back to the Philippines
C F-
To see my love once again.
(Repeat except last word)
Bb-
...... again
C F
With you is where I belong.
(Repeat Chorus)

CODA: (Fade)
F, Eb, Bb-F-C-
Bb/F-C/F-F/Bb

Upon browsing and touring the entire world of cyberspace, I was accidentally bumped into this long forgotten song,-"I'm Going Back To The Philippines" sang by one of the famous boy bands in the 80's Menudo.
It was sang by a new member of Menudo Raymund Acevedo...freshly as it may seems...my memory bank has just started to play the song as my mouth was trying to utter some vaguely lyrics.I strongly believe that this song was a nostalgic which brought so much tears and emotions of fleetingness to the Filipino fans.
Well, just try to appreciate what this song had made a tremendous impact to the Philippines. It had kept the fondest memories alive,isn't it? it's a timeless classic that has always warmed our hearts and it brings us back to all those wonderful years with this boy band which is a yesterday once more.

LIFE IS A JOURNEY:WE ARE LIKE CASSETTE PLAYER

Life is a journey. We are like a CASSETTE PLAYER. It has Play, Rewind, Forward, Record, Eject and Pause.Most of the time we are PLAYING are life journey, Sometimes we REWIND our Past, Also we FAST FORWARD for our dreams and ambitions, We also RECORD most of our experiences. But if you have problems in life, just PAUSE..... but never ever touch the EJECT because that is withdrawal from one's happiness, or even quitting from one's life.PERSONS ARE GIFTS FROM GOD TO US...We are all gifts wrapped with different wrappers and colors. But whether you are wrapped with SPECIAL DELIVERY or ORDINARY PAPER, it's not a big deal because what is important.....you are wrapped with LOVE.You are a person, you are a gift...
(source: www.scihi1990.blogspot.com)

One of the websites that I like to visit is, a website that is being organized by my neighbor and schoolmate in OCNHS..one of the entries of their blog was about Life is a Journey..hence,we are like Cassette player being played repeatedly,aren't we?. We sometimes live the recorded things that we do everyday, or we keep on blaming ourselves about the failures that we have had in the past.
Hence, the quotation above is just a self-explanatory...its up to you on how you see things as it is or how you interpret it.

IN TIMES LIKE THESE

The world is hopeless now, as the world's getting older the more our conditions become critically worst. Our money have lost a great deal of their purchasing power.
The world is in the midst of an absolutely enormous financial crisis. Recently, four great banks in America announced its bankruptcy, with many major banks and other respected financial institutions in danger collapsing. Philippine stock exchange, seriously dying following the less job opportunity in the country with meager salaries but massive government corruptions.
Chaos in Thailand, pathetical bombing in India and in various parts of Middle East. Non stop wars from selected countries keep wreaking havoc the fear conditions of the young and innocent minds.
Natural related disasters continually damaging some parts of the world, that left emptiness to every loss of individuals. A famous American Economic analyst predicted America would suffer a great economic melt down by the year 2009 and onwards. it is the most powerful country inthe world but economically paralyzed that affects the world market.
These facts dishearten me much so as my future clearly vanish. In times like these, what will you do? what would be the first things that pops out into your mind? In times like these, where are you going?
If I'm going to ask or if I were to ask myself, I practically don't know...I,myself is a hopeless homosapiens and is trying to survive these striking analogical crisis.Truly, its an alarming to realize that I am really unable and lacking strength since I'm still jobless and has no permanent job. As I can see , my education has no used to no avails.

THE QUIET SHOUT

I just want to leave the comfort zone and make major life changes so I could be as happy as I truly deserved to be....Haaay,hirap ng buhay talaga!

In my quest to search the freedom that I have longed for, hasn't visibly come. Life has been so boring, unfair in such a way that I become eccentric. Surrounded by people whom I have just met not just long ago of years, misjudge me of being wicked, a losser, undesirable, uneasy to get along with and fastidious.

But they don't know practically the real me, that I juggle a grueling unfair life the same fate that they have. Being frank is better than being vulgar,right? That's me, a frank person who never afriads to talk straight and show sincere expression. What's wrong with being frank? I'm just trying to be honest and true, visibly showing the real me instead of acting to be pious superficially but a fake trying hard individuals.

Having a real group of friends since birth and friends whom I just met in the school and in church are the people with whom I dare to be myself, my soul is naked with them only to be who and what I am.These friends understand the contradictions the nature of me that sometimes lead others to misjudge me.Nonetheless, my doors are still open for a new room of set of friends. It's fun to have a lot of friends around you, but in the canopy of a place that I temporarily considered home aren't (a) friends as I expected to be. They don't understand the inner demons of myself, I can't really be myself around with them.

They were blinded the selfishness and egoism that they don't see everything about me and love me of being who I am, but just loving me of what I have that they enjoyed freely, devouring what I earned (heaven forbid). The worm that itches the paranoia in me sparks to a critical perspective that they are just hypocrites and nothing but a family of pharisees,damn heck.

I was in deep distressed that regrettable is the word I choose, accepting somebody and fed them plainly on my palm,yet, turn their back on me. Now I already knew their true colors that easily faded when things turn out to be badly.

They never know the beginning lives of a shadow behind me with all the struggles in-between. I am also doing my best to protect and controlling myself from the predators in life or death struggle. Surviving the harsh changing life is really hard to control which the strong foundation of friendship that you have started literality melting away in front of me.

My heart is shouting quietly which the remedial likely to knock down the pain.

As a saying goes, "No friends-hard life.Many (real good) friends-hard life, but with (real good) friends." Honestly, life is hard nowadays, so why would I worry over to an unworthy to worry of?

THE LONG AND WINDING ROAD

The Long and Winding Road
(The Beattles)

The long and winding road
That leads to your door

Will never disappear
I've seen that road before

It always leads me here Lead me to you door

The wild and windy night

That the rain washed away
Has left a pool of tear

Crying for the day Why leave me standing here
Let me know the way

Many times Ive been alone
And many times Ive cried Any way youll never know

The many ways Ive tried

But still they lead me back
To the long winding road You left me standing here

A long long time ago Dont leave me waiting here

Lead me to your door

But still they lead me back
To the long winding road

You left me standing here
A long long time ago

Dont leave me waiting here
Lead me to your door

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

According to Paul McCartney the one who composed the song, "I just sat down at my piano in Scotland, started playing and came up with that song, imagining it was going to be done by someone like Ray Charles. I have always found inspiration in the calm beauty of Scotland and again it proved the place where I found inspiration."

"It's rather a sad song. I like writing sad songs, it's a good bag to get into because you can actually acknowledge some deeper feelings of your own and put them in it. It's a good vehicle"

I'm not a fan of Beattles but this song have brought so much impact of emotions into my heart. An emotions that normally feels by individual like me who struggles in life as the long & winding road that I continually travel down the lonely memory lane is a complete unknown destinations.
The winding road is still there and I still am trying to find that road which somehow would bring me to the place of happiness and called success that only relatively few have traveled and found it literally.
Up to now, my journey to the Long and Winding Road has never ended which is truly tiring and pressed me down. Little did I know how long would I embark on this long and winding road as human being as I am, is sometimes weak enough to combat the temptations and the loneliness in life. My life has been travelling on that road since I graduated my education last 2007, wishing that a door of opportunities would just be right there in front of me awaiting for my long knocking.
I have never been succeeded in my plans, so as my heart always asking deeply to the Most High to lead me to that directions that I long wish to see. My heart is bleeding profusely due to the unfulfilled and failure plans. Just can't help myself but to cry of grieve because of the pain continue to prick the flesh of my heart.
Would there be an end to that long and winding road? how long shall I trod and endlessly walking to that road?