Moments of Crisis
Life could be so difficult when you are in a moment of life's confrontation. One is never fighting against an external enemy but always against one's own body.
Four months were eventually the longest span of my stay in the Philippines as planned, but as we may say it, "Sometimes things didn't go as planned" & that sulk me. I didn't have much with me when I got home from Poland as I'm honestly not a moneyed person by nature. Neither, would I consider myself a spendthrift nor a compulsive spender when I reward myself to travel.
I never travel on posh but on a budgeted way, however, proven to be- money would probably runs dry. Sadly, none from the jobs that I have had formally applied to showed any positive signs that I could possibly fly anytime soon.
Nevertheless, its not the end of the world yet, and the battle of life hasn't over. What am I just simply hoping for was that I could retain the instinct of survival while battling the odds of life.
I still have two more formal interviews this month, & if these two won't work well, much to my regret, I have to fly rightly for Cambodia before February comes.
Good heavens, that I've got friends scattered around the part of South east Asia , worries has no place at all when I need a roof to shelter myself overseas. To say the least, I'm grateful for my friends who open their doors in times I needed a warm place to stay by & for feeding me when I don't have something to put upon on my plate. They just acting on their own without waiting for me to tell the essential needs that I long for.
Don't you think I'm being rather melodramatic? Like treats a situation as much more serious that it really is? Well, be in my shoes. Occasionally, this crisis have thought me of singing this song:
I open my eyesI try to see but I'm blinded by the white light.I can’t remember howI can’t remember whyI'm laying here tonightAnd I can’t STAND the painAnd I can’t make it go awayNo I can’t STAND the pain*CHORUS*How could this happen to meI've made my mistakesgot nowhere to runThe night goes on as I’m fading awayI'm sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to meEverybody’s screamingI try to make a sound but no one hears meI’m slipping off the edgeI’m hanging by a threadI wanna start this over againSo I try to holdOn to a time whenNothing matteredAnd I can’t explain what happenedAnd I can’t erase the things that I’ve doneNo I can’t*CHORUS*How could this happen to meI've made my mistakesgot nowhere to runThe night goes on as I’m fading awayI’m sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to meI've made my mistakesgot nowhere to runThe night goes on as I’m fading awayI’m sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to me