Talking to Myself

I am suddenly feeling lonely now,I've been living abroad away from my friends and family for two years now and never felt the need to go find friends. I have managed to turn into a completely lonely person which I am still not able to stop wondering how I brought this on myself. I have become incredibly used to my loneliness, I am depended on it and yet I find myself surprised and disturbed by it every single day.
Thought of travelling & working abroad would erase my loneliness believing that half of my dreams has granted,yet, the longingness of complete happiness is still hard to gain. I tried to show my own parade and chased my loneliness away but being away from friends whom you've been with since then is irreplaceable.
I guess, I am still in the verge of adjusting myself to the environment that I am not familiar with. Poland is a beautiful country, so much to see but it added loneliness in me....Huuh, can't express the right words to say & surely you've gone to the same fate when you are abroad.

MARCH MADNESS BLOGGING

This is what I am going to do this March but to update and write more on my blog note. Decided to be in the hiatus for days since my time has been occupied with computing grades for the Thai students.
'Am also updating myself at my Twitter...I won't stop blogging till I grow old. This would be my online diary, a constant companion, a shock absorber.
Well, when availability comes..I'd certainly write more.

HAVE TO HANG ON MUCH LONGER

I've been pretty busy with school, so haven't updated for a while. Last weekend was busy also, but worth blogging about!
It's been my four months and a half here in Thailand by now ,yet, so many things to discover bound to settlement.
Talking about the food, language barrier, culture and most especially conforming to my teaching conditions. These past two weeks were so extremely defatigable. My patience has been tested that I was almost tempted of giving up my teaching job here in Thailand.
The longer I teach the students, the lesser their interests to grow. And that made me looks so pathetic and a helpless foreign teacher...Poor Me.
I couldn't help but to sigh ceaselessly and feel sorry for myself. I tried everything and use all the resources that I could do, internet, videos and books, still the expression of excitement is obscure.
Futility as it may seems, I need to finish my contract so long as the Director of the school would terminate it in a shorter time.
Amounting to a small number of students have coming to my class everyday (except of course the section 1s) which signs of disinterested in Learning English, either they don't understand me or they feel bored or they just simply don't like me.
However,I am keeping myself at ease to avoid much affected and stressed over.