Feeling Forgotten by God

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I am emotionally going through a difficult circumstances right now, where I feel each breath God appears to be far away which I prayed He is so silent. Instead of feeling loved and taken cared of, loneliness and abandonment takes over..this is what I feel right now.
Has he rejected me? Has His unfailing love gone forever? 

                                                    or

Does God finally closed His door of mercy upon me?

or

 I am almost at the end of the rope now, and the pleads of seeking deliverance, forgiveness and saving are the primary petitions that I am now begging to God. While seeking solace to my Father, I stumbled upon on an online article that somehow brought me back to normal thinking. With that, the sense of sharing it has pushed me to post them here so that it would remind me always that would never abandon me.

Here it is: 

"Here are all sorts of times in the Scriptures when God reminds us to remember.  We tend to be a short-sighted and forgetful bunch, and so since the beginning of time God has established pillars in time and traditions to help us to not forget.  He asks us to remember the Sabbath day (Exodus 20:8), He instructed the Israelites on crossing over the Jordan to set up pillars of stone to remember (Joshua 4).  God remembers His covenant with us forever (Psalm 105:8) and the communion service is a remembrance service. (1 Cor. 11:24-25)

We have imperfect memories and so God holds the hand of each new generation, helping us to never forget.  Why does He want us to remember?

First, to take our eyes off of ourselves and place them on Him. It is easy to get bogged down in the problems of today, and to only see the unresolved task right in front of us. It might be something relatively small that frustrates us in a particular moment:  we get locked out of the house, or we're past the deadline on a project at work, or our flight is delayed, or we realize we forgot to buy milk for the cereal. Again.

So often we forget the big picture and how He blesses us.  How He helped us find the house—a home.  We forget how He is going to touch others through the project we’re struggling to complete, and how it can change lives for Eternity. How often when we face a delayed flight do we remember the pure awesomeness of flight?  How we can travel from Orlando to Denver in under 3 hours—while watching the news or surfing the web!  And when we forget to buy the milk, how often do we, as we reach for one of 3 other breakfast options, remember how others have nothing to reach for? 

Secondly, when we remember, we set up pillars in a lost world. Just imagine a dozen or so years after Joshua and his men set up the stone memorials.  As other men, women and children walk past this memorial it is a reminder of God’s faithfulness, goodness and His promises to each generation.

Our own personal experiences are our own pillars. No one can argue our own conversion story—how He changed our hearts, our priorities, our perspective on everything.  When we remember how He has worked in our own hearts, and share that with others, we allow Him to continue that work.  We memorialize our experience.

Thirdly, by looking backwards, we can move forward.  Winston Churchill said “The farther backward you can look, the farther forward you are likely to see.”

When we remember His working in our lives, we are better equipped for the future.  By remembering His answers to prayer, our faith grows. When we remember, our actions shift, and our hope can blossom. 

Humans need to be reminded to remember.  But God has a perfect memory.  Yet, there are things that in His mercy He chooses to forget. There is a verse—it is one of a long list—where I understand the words, but I really cannot grasp the concept. 

“I, I am he who blots out your transgressions for my own sake, and I will not remember your sins.” – Isaiah 43:25 ESV

Why does God chooses to forget the very things that without Christ would separate us from Him? I cannot get my head around it.  But I thank Him for it.

By remembering we put our eyes back on Him. We set up pillars in a dark world. By remembering we can move forward into a future with Him. I praise God that though His memory is perfect, and ours is flawed—He chooses to forget."

Text courtesy of  Jean Boonstra

The Weight of Life

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When life's burden's too heavy to carry, and we tend to be affected by it - it slows down our journey or either stops us.

I believe, everyone has gone through such bad pace in life where at times we forget to smile and everything seems to be so gloomy.
When we travel to valleys of profound sadness and seasons of sadness we cannot appreciate the beauty of life and its wonder given by God. Who could have thought of smiling and gladden oneself when you are enveloped with problems.
By the start of this year 2014 wasn't really a good start. A sadden news had broke me into tears when my uncle had passed away, bearings with my previous problems that I have had in the latter part of 2013. Hitherto, the fear of losing someone bloodily close to you would always frightens you to last a lifetime. Awhile back, my aunt - first cousin of my mother died and she's not just an ordinary aunt but a close one to my family.
I have thought that bad luck has escorted me and won't stop till I got shattered and torn apart. Yet, all of these trials has jog my memory of kneeling it down to the Super Being above, entrusting my drawback to Him.
As I have my devotional routine, I came across of this beautiful quotes truly liquefies my heart.

" Whenever life's burdens oppress you, And trials are too much to face, Remember God's strength in your weakness; He'll give you His power and grace." - Sper

 The song below has been my recent fave and serves as inspiration to ring me a bell every now and then that God is better than I. This song really roar me to tears.

" Do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try,...but rejoice.... when His glory is revealed. - 1 Peter 4: 12-13

I just thank God that I have Him with me, no matter how sad and troubled I am. With that, I have all the reasons to rejoice and be glad.

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Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him. - James 1:12

Feeling Frustrated with Life

I am just generally hugely frustrated these days the reason my blog is pretty silence since from my last post. Haven't been blogging lately when the feeling of frustrations started to come around me and at times it feels like the world is against me.
First was, I have unintentionally lost the camera I borrowed from a friend. Of course, I have to pay or pinch hit for the same model of cam that I lost. The paying wasn't really worries me big time but the idea of not retrieving  it at all and snapping the culprit.
Second, I might be so hypocrite if hadn't this atrocious motor response after of spending $230 cost of the camera that I bought for replacement. I could have sent my parents allowance by now so as enjoying my Christmas list-to-buy, of sort.
Third, my laptop has completely dead and un-useful. Didn't apprehend that it could happen earlier of the time that I am not prepared to lost something that I treasured. The biggest challenge has been started developing when I am not used to stay at home without my lappy with me regularly, with or without internet. So, I started to adapt the feeling of having not. This is the primary reason why I can't blog the regularity as I used to be. I won't be visibly seen online as frequent.
Fourth, is as always..I am broke. I wouldn't go into details of running my explanations why I am. In this life filled with frustrations, I have no other person to run to but the Most High.
I admittedly that I have refused to be in the church for some cheap and unreasonable argumentation.