IN THIS JOURNEY CALLED LIFE

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In this earthly journey, each of us is not blessed with abundance in life. Some were born with a silver spoon on their mouth, while the others on the opposite.
Some may born literally poor but richly blessed in the end because of hard work & determination to escape in the quicksand of poverty. As we journey through life, we'll probably notice that things begin to change little by little. We get more responsibilites & faced challenges. Its like playing cards, which tricky games involved just to get win, or we use mathematical methods to get the winning pair. If you play your cards rightly, in the end, lossing is far from your hands.
Our future is a game that must be played with winning strokes to assure us of victory. As we are coming of age each day, it is these years of our lives that we attempt to build a world of our own without any assistance given by our parents in order for us to walk independently.
Life is full of frustrations while you continue to walk in this lonely life....what we are going to do is enjoy what life has to offer, or else we won't be able to do it again when we started to fade slowly..that word's of goodbye is highly pronounced.

SIGNIFICANT MOVIES

(As jobless for three months) Other activities that made me busy (aside my applying for abroad online) is watching movies at my friend's notebook.I couldn't have this life of viewing significant movies I have known,without Jack's (my close friend) kindness of sharing what he has collected. Well, his liking of movies reflects of what he is and his perception towards life & so am I too.
Eventually, we both have the same interest in terms of choosing movies to watch..at least some, though.That way, it helps us to widen our views based on what we saw practically by apply them both ways politically & religiously.Embracing the philosophy of communism isn't bad as long as you practice it, in line literally to its tenets. To be treated equally is what our planet's needs to have, from the oppressor who selfishly gain for their own benefits. I like what Karl Marx was trying to prove to the world just to give what is fairly deserving to us poor. Distributions of wealth fairly enough to meet the needs of the needy.
My Social Philosophy and Literary Interpretations subjects helped me to open the reality of what Communism do to the world as it is suffering from the greediness of opportunistic politicians and the church who just interfere for their ownsake.
Watching these two movies enhance my insufficient ideas about equality under the tenets of communism.
Not just because I agreed and embrace communism,I'll hold guns and revolts just as our revolutionists did....I wont do that.

I watched this movie twice because of the implications that influences my belief as a person.According to the review of this film," Its about two lives running parallel for a while with common aspirations and similar dreams ". Its a life changing journey of Ernesto Guevara known to be Che Guevara. Before the world knew his name, he was a simple volunteer medical practitioner that started as one journey that defined his life.On his journey with his friend, he saw the changes how Latin America was being separated by boundaries yet connected in just one continent. Che's views in life changed upon his journey that embraced him to Marxism philosophy that made him to be world's great revolutionist. On the road of his travel, he witness how the poor being mistreated and separated from the well-off community. He saw Latin America filled with injustice influenced by the westerners.Che recorded every details of his long travel contrived to what his eyes visibly seen. His feelings became worn out more of condition when he finally boarded to a ship headed to San Pablo Peru, as the pitiable passengers embarked to a small boat being pulled by the ship he boarded separated to the affluent passengers ship. The provincialism & segregation of the proletariat to the bourgeois, gave so much trouble to Che that annoyed him to revolt against imperialism.



Defiance movie is another holocaust story based in real life during Nazi's occupation half of Europe. It was led by two Jew brothers who were determined to lead thousands of refugees to fight against the Nazi and escaped them in the middle of the forest till the war was over.The two Bielski Brothers weren't recognized much globally of the bravery they had till this movie was shown. I have been fascinated of reading and watching about Holocaust since I started to own a novel Anne Frank diary.It gives me views how Jews suffered under the cruelly hands of Hitler mercilessly.My perception becomes maturely deep seeing this happenings in the past without any consideration at once.
Hitler was considered as the notorious killer of all times because of his theory that Europe will govern with one blood but German.I collected some of holocaust movies and even documentaries that would help me to open more of eyes about the past historically.

A REALISTIC FAITH IN A REAL WORLD

When you are deeply drowned with an onerous problems in life, it is really so hard to maintain a realistic faith in a real world today. A real world with not much hope but frustration. I rushly cut my vacation early this May believing that a sure job awaits me when I get back to Cavite from Olongapo.Surprisingly as it was, my notion collapsed as if an avalanche of melting ice covered me all over.
Admittedly, I sighed sadly with so much pain in my heart which immediately I prayed hard to the Lord to comfort me.My desire accompanied by expectation,slowly to vanish on a thin air, that a manifolds of wrinkles visibly shown on my face.
Fighting against the most impossible odds, rejoicing is hard to describe just as increasing a realistic faith.Sometimes you feel that the world is no longer revolving around you and time stops to rotates, as if you are in the bridge over troubled water and life is seemingly low that almost touching the ground filthy covered with dust just seeing yourself in the middle of a barren land which nobody can call you but yourself.Could you possibly lift your spirit and enhance your faith? Though, I'm half-miserable and gloomy today my faith to the Lord is still foldly intact.
Honestly, my heart is filled with envy seeing my friends and acquaintances who are luckily made thier lives abroad. I always thought to myself, Why can't I go abroad? Why God is so kind enough to open doors to other people, yet, selfishly neglect me? How long would I dream & anticipate that things would rightly fall in place for me? Do you think it'll happen? Sabi nila, habang may buhay may pag-asa, daw! it has been a favorite quotes to those who are weakly hopeless just to enliven the spirit hopes up.
Mind you people, I'm getting on in years now & still finding that job that'd help me to establish my own family & build my dreams somehow for my kids.
But God is always in control, His mighty plan is mysteriously hidden to us mankind,lets just anticipate that everything will be concealed in His perfect time.

THE FRAGRANCE OF MEMORY

It lessen the difficulty of life when you are at home, though Cavite has been a home for me since 1996 still there's no place like to be in Olongapo.
"Home is where your heart is" - that's an old adage declares the truth never changes. When I'm home, I always have the reason to recall my youthful innocence days. Landmarks that are left reminds me about what is being forgotten. It helps to reduce the occurrence that causes sadness or missingness of puerility.
Admittedly, uprooting a nostalgia clears the oblivion of the past. The road to every memories is faded by endurance of time, but no matter how vague it was the trails of contemporaneous reflecting the old photographs of what is on the past. You bury them in oblivion but it will resuscitate continuously.
You can't escape the gayety of your teeny booper days when it specially gives you the shower of happiness.
Every drop of it satisfies the unsatisfying content of my longings. Recollecting the pictures of the good old days is my only simple joys that needs to be fed by counting every smiles and laughter I had made back in the past.That's exactly the fragrance of memory.
I really love doing it because you can't see it at all, for tomorrow is another day, unless you'll look back.

Olongapo market way back in the 80's.

Magsaysay ave. way back then

RAINBOW CONNECTION

RAINBOW CONNECTION
Kermit the Frog

Why are there so many
Songs about rainbows
And what's on the other side
Rainbow's are visions
They're only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide
So we've been told and some chose to
Believe it
But I know they're wrong wait and see

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me

Who said that every wish
Would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star
Somebody thought of that
And someone believed it
And look what it's done so far
What's so amazing
That keeps us star gazing
What so we think we might see

Someday we'll find it
That Rainbow Connection
The lovers the dreamers and me

Have you been half asleep
And have you heard voices
I've heard them calling my name
Are these the sweet sounds that called
The young sailors
I think they're one and the same
I've heard it too many times to ignore it
There's something that I'm supposed to be

Someday we'll find it
The Rainbow Connection
The lovers, the dreamers and me

This is my fave song.It was popular way back in the early 80's sang by Kermit the frog theme song from the movie "The Muppet Show". No matter how vague it was still I can remember how Kermit sang this wonderful song.Its the entrance of the movie,while Kermit playing the guitar hovering over in the river,beneath in a peaceful moonlight evening.
If you go along with the flow of the lyrics and savor its juices,you'll see yourself in the fantasy land of reality.
The song is truly sad and lonely,yet, soothing.Every time I sing or hear this song,it brings me back the time where I was young,naive and dreaming of going to some place that I wish to see.
As an adult person, I still believing that dreams do come true no matter what.Loneliness,envelopes me when times of reckoning the days,how I would make my dreams come true.
But just as the song goes,someday I'll find it the rainbow connection,the lovers the dreamers and me.

(MAN) AGAINST THE WORLD

What a long absent..such a long blog absent.I never forget blogging but then my life has been guarded with four walls.I have no qualms and angst at all, but a clear and peaceful mind.Huh! this is a long vacation I got for this year.
My long vacation is unexpected because of this world economic melt down.I am affected, the world is much affected too.
I didn't expect that I could have been an idle for this long..3 months straight jobless.I was at loss, stressing my mind physically with this crisis thing.However,God has given me a wide understanding about the casualty that is happening around that would surely inflict my spiritual.
Worries and complains has no rooms in my heart this time..not really this time, but minimally controlled emotions.At times, worries had tempted me to voice out my outburst emotions crazily, nevertheless God is wholly controlling it.



"Have you ever walked alone at night
Like a man against the world
No one takes your side
A boat against the tide
When your faith is shaken you start to break
And you heart cant find the words
Tossed upon the sand"

This passage is taken from the song of Survivor, "Man Against the World".I am completely against the world right now...I believed I really am. I have walked alone in the dark with so much fear and goosebumps about the creepy and scary shadows that following me .My faith has been shaken ever since I started to be seriously focused on my spiritual but done it already & allowed God to be in charge of me.When you are involved in missionary works its like in a rock the boat.Everything is getting down sadly the financial part,And you heart cant find the words,Tossed upon the sand. Painfully as it is, bravery is the word that I thought of to apply or else..I'll be lost in the battles of life.

TIRED OF BEING TIRED

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"In life, you may feel tired of fighting for the same reason everyday. You may feel that everyone is moving so fast leaving you far behind and you may feel that there's no point of moving on.There's no certainty in life.
It's not how fast you get there, it's on how you played the game. Put in mind that at times, it's better to be like a turtle who patiently moves and enjoys every step of the way rather than a rabbit who runs so fast and misses every simple detail of life."
-unknown-

This was the text message I received from a friend. I saved it because the message reflects how I went through everyday. Concerning of my age, I always complains, whinning here and there forgetting to appreciate the little things that God has given me.
I guess my angst in life since then is resulting to failures in life which I can't hardly to accept. Honestly, acceptance is the hardest part specially if it tells about your wishes, & ambitions in life.Time fly so fast so as our age fades just as the leaves that nowhere to go.
I didn't know that my angst becomes a habit when you allow it to grow in your heart,knowing that it goes with you every where you go.Because of my recent malady situation financially,my mind would always entertain & filled with complains and anger, worrying about tomorrow about my future, losing the hope of trusting the Lord fully.
However, I thank God for friends nearby and abroad for the kind prayers and words of endearment that continue to enliven my dying spirit. Tendency of worrying is the food that usually I feed on my mind,that I need to rush things because of my age that I might not have ended to work at all or marrying someone.Or losing to grab the best job that I wish to have eternally, or worrying that I am already losing my track and left behind with my friends and collegue.
Human as I am, that is one of my weaknesses in life...a worry-wart individual..when I received that text,just finding out that at times we need to slow down in order for us to appreciate and understand more the meanings of life..isn't it wonderful? is it?
Last week, I went home to Olongapo with so much pain in heart but happy as well knowing that I'll be seeing home for this year.
Meeting with my classmates and batchmates back in High School were among the people whom I'd met with a little boys thing happiness, which gave me a head ache because of the mixed drinks we had just drunk.
Anyway,I enjoyed that night being with them and hopefully meeting with them again sometimes soon.